They say things come full circle don’t they? The far east has always captured my heart, mind and essence in with it’s art and philosophies.
I don’t like my mindset. I don’t like the irritation I feel when I read something about prayer or god or whatever. Despite what I believe, I want so deeply to love everyone and keep my opinion to myself. It’s so hard. My knee-jerk reaction is to show someone the logical side of the argument, not because I want to be right, but I want to share my hard earned knowledge.
But it is never perceived like that. I get labeled as every other atheist being a jerk. I understand why.
I was thinking about it, and it’s not that I have a problem with religious people. I have a problem with people being assholes and being illogical and using religion as an excuse to do so. Also, in knowing the history of it all, I know how much of a complete inaccuracy religion is.
Which brings me back to buddhism. I used to study the zen arts a bit more diligently and dabble with them here and there, but I need some sort of ground. I need something to strive for, something that is not so intrusive on other people. I can have my knowledge, and if someone asks or during discussion give my point of view, but that needs to be the extent of it. I need to focus on me and my family, my focus, my path. I need to root out fear, Need to dig out my insecurities, break down my walls and get back to a mindset of simplicity and be mindful of what is important and what is not. This computer is not. Facebook is not. This blog is for sure not. I don’t matter, yet, I do because of the possible effect I could have on others.
“Buddhism has the characteristics of what would be expected in a cosmic religion for the future: it transcends a personal God, avoids dogmas and theology; it covers both the natural & spiritual, and it is based on a religious sense aspiring from the experience of all things, natural and spiritual, as a meaningful unity” – A widely cited quotation attributed to Albert Einstein. Beautiful.
Two of my co workers want to go to the temple soon for some meditation soon. I’m going to try to start doing it myself during the time my kids go to bed and Justin gets home. Yoga and meditation. Need to center myself, get away from all the internal negativity my brain keeps feeding me.
Peace, zen, Om.
Cheers. Heres to the beginning of back to being balanced. Maybe my art will come back. If nothing else, I will practice the art of living.
