Maybe not 500. That a slight exaggeration. I’m thinking two more. I’ve got it all planed out… which is sort of unfortunate considering things don’t like to go as planned….
Move to Oregon, get photography business off ground, buy house, add on rooms and studio to house, get gardens started, then have some more babies! So, like 5 years, basically. Which is sort of depressing….. Juliet and Josie will be so much older than the young ones…but it’s fine…. Then when the little ones get around 4-5… (possibly earlier if we are financially sound enough for it) I want to foster. Specifically older kids. Kids like 16-18. It’s quite a tragedy that these kids are just spit out into the world when they turn 18. I may not be able to adopt them, but I can give them a home. A base of operations, a place where people love them, regardless. A place to come home to for the holidays.
I suppose being an only child for most of my life and then having to split the holidays between two people made me want to have a big family. I want to help other people too. I’m excited about the prospect of being able to help some kid go to college, help them feel like someone gives a shit. I mean really. Watch this girl. If I could do something now, I would. It’s heart breaking.
Also I think I’d like to do like a poultry rescue thing on our land. Like, oh these chickens won’t lay eggs any more, lets EAT THEM. NO NO No no no…. Give them to jade, she will cuddle them, possibly against their will, but better forced cuddles than a chopping block, right? Right. I say that and I will probably end up rescuing a few cows, goats… farm animal type creatures. We will see. Don’t want to overwhelm myself. BUT more kids mean more help. Also I think having tons of animals, fresh air, and fresh food from the garden will be pretty damn therapeutic for foster kids. Maybe I can do mini gardens too, for each kid to have and plant what they wish. AH!
Life, please don’t let crazy things happen that prevent us from making this so. I don’t think my wants for the future are greedy or over the top. Please. Please.
